Today is the 28th July 2008 .

Know what ? Skipped school today, yet, again . Report due today, but i barely complete half of it, see how bad a state am i in . Anyway, skipping school means to get report up by today for sure . Sigh . Sometimes i really wish i could lead a happy life even if it means no posh-condo-located-in-the-mid-of-town, no fairlady 350Z, no designers' dressing, no Louis Vuitton hand bag, and definitely no Jimmy Choo heels .

Damn fulla programs last weekend, i almost thought i got my freedom in Singapore . Haha . Friday night, catched Dark Knight midnight show and slacked around ( i forgot what else i did ), slept at 6a.m. . Saturday, to the airport for last CYA duty, then to St. James Boiler Room and party till 4a.m., went for supper and slept at 6a.m. too, Sunday wentta work at SABA from 12noon to 4p.m. and wedding dinner food testing session at night .

Isn't it cool ? It is . . totally .

Our first ever clubbing night together at Boiler room . We had Johnnie Walker for the night, his friend, Koh Jin, went back to America for studies yesterday, so Saturday night was a farewell party sort of thing . Drink, loud music, new friends and dance, lucky he knew not to drive there, if not he'll miss out the fun . Clever boy huh . =) . Club ends, supper came, prata to feed the hunger . We took a cab back his house .

Sunday came, working at SABA makes me feel i had chosen the wrong course of study . Sometimes i rather be in the industry making people happy and getting cash, than to be earning big bucks feeling so stressed up like a fool . Whatever the case is, Steven is resigning, working till 31st July 2008 . Well, another left, who's left ? Sigh . Anyway, i wish him all the best . =) .

After work, we wentta Dragon Gate Restaurant . Goh's looking for a place to hold his wedding dinner, so we tested their food over there . Result . . . not good enough . What we ordered was premium food, but the taste was not of premium level . Lobster was so-so, shark's fin had this seafood smell sticking to it, the cod fish isn't fresh from it's color and the seafood rice wasn't nice either . The whole group comment that the best dish of all was - fruits . Haha . Yeah, it was the fruits that save the day . LOL . The trick is not telling them we're there to test the food so what the results came at the end would be the results we're looking for .

Just talked to Er Jie . Her superior . . . sure needs a slap on the face hard till i can see my palm shape on it . . or even my finger prints on it . Till then her head shall turn a few rounds and be ready for me to slap another side to balance it up . And this is what i have to say to you ANGIE NG FOONG CHOO .

I might be a lot younger than you, and you might be alot older than me, but i'm sure what i've learn so far in life is so much so much more than you, at least i got some SENSE more than you . You have no idea at all what's the point of life . Let me tell you what's the point of life . The purpose of life is to make achievements and lead a happy life, so meaningfull that a life as precious as this could only happen this once . That you're so lucky to have a life as a human being and not an ant, that you could BE SMARTER THAN A PIG ! Would you be happy to destroy people's happiness ? Would you be happy to break people's bowl of rice ? Would you be happy to even pick on people ? If you are, it's either you're in hatred with these victims or you are mentally unsound . Yeah, you might be fighting for a vacancy so your brother could work with you, in the same company, in the same office, or perhaps in the same table as you, worst comes to worst sitting on a double seat office roller chair sharing tables, staples, pens tabulating expenses and balancing the accounts together ! Oh what a great sister you are, i'm so touched . *boo* .

PUI ! !

If you're so concern over his career the more you should let him go on his own bare hands and foot into building his career himself . AND NOT BY PICKING ON MY POOR SISTER WITH SOME DIRTY TRICKS OF YOURS SO SHE COULD RESIGN ON HER OWN ACCOUNT AND LET THE SEAT OVER TO YOUR BROTHER ! ! !

A simple letter of appraisal, you couldn't even say something nice ? Seriously . . is this the life you wanna be known as after you die ? Lookin back when other ghost asks you how's your career like ? Oh, i always pick on my subordinates, i love doing that, that's more like my job . Is that gonna be your answer ? Coz it's no point lying after you're dead you know .

I might have no right to say all these to you . But if you pick anyone up the streets and show this situation, you can really know, and know it inside out - YOU'RE A FAILURE IN LIFE .

What comes around goes around, retribution exists .

you can run,

Whether or not you believe in it . . .

it's Karma .

but you can't hide .

And Angie Ng Foong Choo . . . you'll face karma sooner or later .

Today is the 20th July 2008 .

I'm so tired, yet i can't sleep . Just when i could get some rest, things cropped up .

Was feeling so damn lifeless yesterday, asking around who would wanna go pub with me . Seems like i don't have much party friends . Ended up, went home after airport duty, checked mail, showered, wentta meet David . Played poker, and asked him to send me to Boat Quay .

Yes, i went drinking alone, at Bedroom Bar . No cocktails, no flaming lamborghini, no magarita, no long island, no irish coffee, no snowball and no cranberry vodka . Limited cash, i went on with Tiger beer, 3 bottles, one on the house from the crew having seen me so lonely . Haha, ain't cheap, disco hours have higher charges, one bottle of Tiger beer cost S$14/- . Had a game of pool with the crew too . I lost, he's a professional play i guess, skillful at angle shots . Had a great time even though i was there alone, music is loud enough, bass is strong and i have lesser matters to worry about when i was there . Wentta sat outdoors after that and i saw 3 WRX, the new hatchback ones, parked in front of me . Not nice, though one had rims and brakes changed . However, the new WRX is better, 2.5litre car . Can't wait to see the full mod up drive .

Went off at 5am plus, close to 6am, reached home, slept, and woke up at 12noon .

Guess i'll have to rush my report and finish my IS revision for tomorrow's test .

Will update soon .

Today is the 19th July 2008 . Knew i haven't been updating, been real caught up with things . I feel so shag, lifeless, no strength, weak and so like a patient .

I guess 90% of the class should have chosen their electives by now . Well, for me, i haven't . I think choosing something that works alone . Group work only makes me slack be a free rider . Like now, IS, knew nothing, did nothing, and don't even know what am i gonna do . RWPS, only managed to start yesterday with Cindy's help .

THANKS, CINDY . =)

Next Monday's IS test, Thursday's Tax test . I'll chiong, with Shirley . =) . I need to find motivation . September ! That's it . I'll work hard and smart now, i'll force my way through this in a positive manner and i'll get my reward this September . 6 weeks of holiday starting from 30th August 2008 . I'll work again, earn more this time, no more spending, and i MUST get my lisence no matter what .

I wanna sleep, but i just can't sleep . I'm tired, really tired, but i can't sleep . For who can help me is not helping, who can't help ain't able and those who wanna help doesn't deserve to know about this sinful fact .

Sometimes i really hate myself . Why the hell can't i just do it, forget it, get it over and done with, and not get back to it . The more i think of it, the more i couldn't get myself outta it . But if i don't think of it, escaping doesn't solve the problem, 'cause i know, if i don't think of it now, i'll think of it later .

I won't cry in front of you, neither would i be sad in front of you . My tears are not supposed to be seen .

Save me .

Today is the 10th July 2008 . I'm so ... ... ... it's like mother fucker hell irritating bastard . I didn't meant all that, but i need to release somehow . No idea what to, what did it to, but i know i need a cure to this, it's making my life like hell .


Skipped a week of school, went Redang . Maybe i'll blog about it some other time . Not now .


School was a disaster . I might have to forward, first thing, my GEMS, lost 60% of overall weightage . Mind you, i didn't fail, i lost, meant i got zero .. ZERO ! ! 30% one time quiz, home done, half way through, Mom accidentally switched off the main switch while my laptop was running on wire . No idea what happened then, only knew i couldn't do the second time . Second 30% assignment, i miss two weeks of lesson, assignment task link was deleted, i was too late .

So this is Taxation CA1 .


Taxation CA1 retest .




FACC CA2 .

Cost accounting CA .

Cost accounting CA retest .



Business law CA .

Oh you did a great job, Chantel Smith . So well you could just quit school and get a job at McDonald's .

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A white lamborghini visits my area recently, got a picture of it, not really clear . But hearing the exhaust is good enough to last my memory of it a few days . Got a video of this white beaut, very blur anyway . The next one is another car, couldn't recognize the make, but the good thing is, i just happen to shot the video as the car pick ups, so when you watch the video, plug in the earpiece, turn up the volume, you can hear the exhaust so nice and smooth .

I hate myself . Somehow i did, sometimes i do . How i wish i live my life in a club, with things i call ''music'' every now and then, with things i call ''place'' to be around and with things i call ''life'' to survive .

Ever had people called you the perfect girl for the other half ? I did . But one factor of me crush the very word flat . I would wanna be perfect too, but when you start something, it's hard to stop, just like smoking .

Save me ...

I don't say that for fun .